I am so nervous, as you can imagine. Today I take my test. 

Everyone knows that I am taking it today. I have to pass. I will pass. 

I have made it this far, I completed the program. I can do this. 

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Renew

I am starting again.

These past few weeks I have been a little absent in my venture to health and wellness. No more. I am going to reinforce my healthy habits. Going to the gym every day. Eating real food. 

A goal I have in this new phase in my life is to focus more on my health. I am going to make time for more self care. I want to buy some products to reinforce my skin care routine, nice face wash and moisturizer. 

I can’t believe I am this close to finishing the program, and that I’m actually feeling good about it. As nervous as I am, I am not consumed with anxious thoughts yet. I am ready to finish this chapter and hopefully move up to greater opportunities.

Things are shifting.

Xoxo

Waiting

This, and this alone, is what’s keeping me going. It is the sole reason I am still floating through this program. I have to finish the semester so I can get back here. This is what I am working towards.

I have been close to my breaking point on multiple occasions recently. This month hasn’t been very kind to me. 

After tonight, I have 11 days that I have to come to school, and it seems like an overwhelming amount of assignments and exams left. But I think I can do this. I can get through it.

Today they dropped a bomb on my class, that the weekend for class has flipped to the alternate weekend: the weekend I work. I don’t understand how they can morally do this to us. First they make us all rearrange our lives so that we can come to school every other Friday. Now they want us all to go crawling to out bosses to have them switch our schedules to the opposite week? I can’t wait to be finished with this school. 

On a positive note, this fact doesn’t affect me until after my vacation. So I will continue on with the present semester’s issues, and worry about that afterwards.

Soon.

I am feeling blessed. And I am.
Xoxo 

How.

I have so much going on, and so many things I am worrying about. 

I am trying to find how to be inspired. 

Today has been filled with anxiety and anger, and I am sick of feeling like this sometimes. I feel like I need a few weeks off, where I have zero concerns or responsibilities. I need an escape.

I am going on a cruise in 103 days. I can do this. I will pass my second semester in the program. Then I can relax for a month and enjoy a long vacation with the people I care about. 

I live for moments like this. The calm. The safe. I just have to remember what this feels like. 

Find something that inspires you today. xx

Greatful

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Throwing back to this lovely day I spent with my guy, I am hoping to experience some similar happy feelings on our adventure today.

I am greatful to have everything thing I do. But recently I have been feeling inadequate. I hate when these feelings take over me. I am working on it.

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I have been spending some time in the mornings now going for runs outside. It is one of my favorite things. On the weekends I’ve been going to the gym. I think exercising has helped lift my mood, and I think I am starting to finally lose weight.

I am excited for what today will bring. I think we will have a good day and it will somewhat fix what I am making a mess of.

Have a lovely day 🙂

Xx

The week begins..

I skipped out on work early yesterday to study for my exam. After stopping at whole foods for the salad bar (of course). I spent a few hours in the king of all study spots on this campus. It is this little hole in the wall with some nice couches and the best view you can get from this garbage school.

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I drank this nice kombucha and apparently studied wrong, because I didn’t know 1/2 of the questions on this test.

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I haven’t gotten my score back yet and I am somewhat nervous. Hopefully they post it soon.

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I have made this for dinner two nights in a row. It is sooo good. Probably not so healthy because the noodles are just prepackaged Ramen noodles, but I don’t care.
It is Ramen noodles, but I used miso rather than the seasoning packet. And then I sautéed some veggies in garlic and ginger. The boy even liked it, which is unusual. It is dreamy, please go make it.

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And this morning I had this for breakfast. Basically just kale and chickpeas with some balsamic vinegar. Kale might be my favorite food…next to every dessert of course.

Currently I am listening to lecture with a soy chai. More to come

Xx

Weekend

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I am attempting to grow a plant that my cat doesn’t eat for once. So I am growing this cilantro outside. I don’t even know if it will grow in this weather.

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Yesterday I had this amazing Caesar salad. I used a recipe from Hotforfood. If you are not familiar, it is an amazing vegan youtube channel and blog.

Today is easter and I am spending the day in my home town. In the morning I am going to a buffet at the bowling alley with my guy’s family, and a little later I am going to my mom’s.

Happy Easter!

Night

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I left work early today and ate some of this leftover stirfry on the deck with my cat.

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Today was such a long day. I had so much anxiety before my skills test, now I feel so drained. I am going to bed early, hopefully then I will wake up on time tomorrow so I can stop by the gym before work.

I am so glad to be done with that test, even though I have yet to find out whether I passed or failed it. It is just a relief to have it behind me. The rest of this week will be a breeze.

I think I am going back home for easter. Other then that, I will mainly be resting and getting organized this weekend. Maybe I will study for my next exam. School is almost over. I am almost there. XX

Wednesday

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Dreaming about this view. This was from my trip to Florida last year.

Take me back.

I am looking for a camera to purchase for my cruise. I want to capture as much as I can on this next trip.

Today I can’t seem to find my brain, I have been looking over old pictures all day. I haven’t done anything to prepare for my skills test that I have tonight.

I am going to try to get some things done in the next hour and possibly leave work early to get something to eat at home before class.

Maybe the second half of my day will be more productive. XX

Tuesday

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My yogi kitten.

After last night I feel accomplished. I studied for my nutrition exam that I have later tonight. Hopefully that will go well.
I have a skills test for lab tomorrow. I am very nervous about that. After that though, I will only have 4 more days of clinicals and 2 more big exams and I will finally be able to breathe again.

Today I am going to make flash cards while at work to study for the test I have tonight. When I get home I need to practice for my skills test.

Breathe. Focus. Good things are coming.